If you're a regular reader of this blog, you're aware of my recent failure at my attempt to introduce meditation into my morning routine. (If you're not, you can read about it here.) What i failed to mention in that post was that failing in meditation also derailed the whole thing.
It's not as bad as it sounds -- i still wake up early and tend to get more accomplished before i leave for work. Also, instead of exercising twice a week i've been doing pullups in the gym at my workplace and plenty of laborious work around the house. It's not perfect but it's something.
I also mentioned in that post about how the lack of success in the meditation challenge brought up thoughts of failure, motivation, dedication, and delayed gratification, among other things.
Why was i not successful implementing a morning routine? Was it because i simply didn't want it that bad? Was it a lack of dedication / motivation? I'm sure all of that played a role. It also made me want to explore further the reason that i'm unable to delay gratification. I've recently purchased The Marshmellow Test: Mastering Self Control but i'm putting off reading it even though i know that it's what's best for me. (see what i did there?) In all seriousness, i'm a couple chapters deep.
This challenge has not gone as planned since i have yet to develop a morning routine. I can choose to sulk or i can take what i've learned and continue to get better every day. The obvious choice is the latter.
I will begin a new 21-day challenge in June.
